God is amazing

As the time to leave for Honduras approaches God is preparing my heart. God is cutting away chains that I put on myself pretty much my whole adult life. Only my wife and God know I have struggled with, the feelings of being unworthy and that I am a failure. I have known in my head God says I am worthy and not a failure but it has been a struggle to convince my heart. In the last month or so God has really, for lack of better word, scolded my heart. What I mean by that is God says that he knit me together to be exactly as he needs and who am I to try and knit yarn that he did not make into the fabric of me. I hope that makes sense. That revelation for whatever reason has really started to break those chains off. It really seems like a simple thing but it has really held me back in all aspects of my life. Gods power behind the revelation is producing a miracle in my heart as far as I am concerned. I wrote the part above about 2 weeks ago but did not post but was not sure why, until last nights service and God spoke clearly to me "The new can't begin until the old ends". I am stepping out of old into Gods new!